You certainly got him since you were born but sometimes you don’t notice it because we’re too busy using our eyes with out listening to our hearts. We see different things that would amuse us, loath at, get depress and etc that would sometimes make forget ourselves that we have Him.

We often think that we are alone and abandoned but haven’t you ever asked internalized to yourself that you also abandoned someone? That’s Him. Sometimes, we think selfish. We only think just ourselves.

In times of failure and feeling like the world is all over on your shoulder, put your hands together and pray. Pray to Him and he will lighten your load. You are not alone. You are never be alone because He is there inside your heart. Close your eyes and talk to Him.

Now that I am grown up, I asked myself again if what is love. Love is something you should be careful of. A feeling of magic that it should be known. It needs patience because it would always happen at the right time. Or in other words, True Love Waits. There is always a false love. This is when you get excited of that feeling and you would want everything would happen at the same time at the same moment. You can't wait for things to happen between you and if nothing would work, you get disappointed.

Love is no joke. You should Stop, Think and Listen. Stop. If there's something that is bothering you because a change of feeling came along when you saw or meet that person, stop for awhile. Think. Think if what really it is. Can you handle situations even at the worst moment when you know it is on the verge of failing? Can you still say that you love her/him if things get worst? Can you imagine future with her/him in good times or in bad times? If no or you are in doubt, please think again. Listen. The most important thing is to listen into your heart. Listen what is says because it never lie. Listen to the signs that God has given to you. You should listen and weigh things carefully.

Don't be in a rush because maybe things won't get in the right place. Always remember to take things slowly and easy because if it is really meant for you, it would really happen.

There are many people judged him as a poseur and a big lie because there were no any evidences that shown that he is real. Honestly, I was about to give up because of those issues I hear from other else but there's a voice inside my heart to hold. I don't know how it happened but I just realized that I really love him. I really do and I can't cut the rope that we have between us because there was already a foundation that has been built. The feelings were so strong.

I never expect that we would go this far because we just started on a social networking site by a common friend and then magic happened. Before, I never believed in love as a form of magic because the only principle I have in my mind about love is that it follows a systematic process. Like for example, it must be friends for so long, mutual understanding, long term courtship and then the relationship begins. Well, actually that is what I used to do during my past relationships. Maybe that was the reason why it failed.

Just like normal couples, we fight and we make up. We fight then we make up. We fight then we make up and so on. I guess that's normal but what I love about our relationship is that we can't stand to get angry for so long that would really take for a day or for a week. We don't want to sleep without making up from the little fight we have.

I love him so much and this is the most wonderful feeling I have despite having high grades. I want to live my life while I am still alive with him. He is the great person I ever met.

I just want you to call me Mika but that's not really my real name. If you'll continue read this post, you'll get to know me more.

I really don't know what to write on my first post but I just want to blabber and do blah-blah-blah stuffs.

I know right now, there's no one reading this one except me. Except myself who is writing right now.

I guess I will make another site that talks about what's in my mind. My thoughts. Probably essays and poems and short stories too. But not now, it would be one step at a time. I have lots of things that goes into mind right now and I just spontaneously hammering my little fingers on the keyboard. And oh yes, it is already 12:54 in the mornight and I am pretty hungry. :3 gggrrr. :)

I guess this is all for now because I am really hungry. :D